Once again I apoligise for the length between posts, my only excuse is life gets in the way of me posting regularly, or keeping up with groups I was once very active in. I rarely see my mother these days mainly because her attitude has gone from bad to worse. For example, my aunts daughter is getting married in April and she was telling my other on the phone about buying her daughter’s wedding dress. My mother had a fit due to that money could have been sent to her for more cigarettes. I had hoped my aunt finally got it after the comment but alas it is not to be.
I’ve detirmined with the help of the wonderful man in my life that most of my so called family members are simply unhealthy and we are discussing totally servering ties with most of them. The exception being my 22 year old daughter who is making great strides to get her life on track. Sadly it may be the only option available. I do not intend to fall back into old habits and be sick or depressed all the time.
Granted at times depression still sneaks up on me for a day or two. However, I’m getting pretty good at reining it in when it happens. I guess in some areas I still hold out a small ray of home my family will figure it all out and become decent human beings. Though I know that is not going to happen.
I’m in a really good place mentally, emotionally and physically and intend to stay there. Life is not always easy but at least the tough spots are my own and not the doing of other people.
